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Writer's pictureChubbicorn80

That's not Me.

That's what I said to my therapist when I first started this work. Everyone else has problems. I'm doing just fine.


A few years later, I looked back, and that voice wasn't me. It was my protector, my ego, whatever you want to call it. I named him. It's private to me but for the sake of this, let's call him Jon.


Jon tells me to avoid all these feelings.


Jon wants to keep things as they are, to keep order, to keep "normal." Jon is the manifestation of society, systems of control, and the dark force that wants to bring us into darkness.



I've learned to bring him along with me. Most of the time, he shows up as anxiety as I work on treatments. Other times, he runs completely away.


When I used psychedelics? , Jon held on until the last moment, but eventually, he couldn't do it anymore. I had opened a portal into my true self, and I could see the world as it is, a reflection of myself.


Not everyone is ready. Not everyone wants to be unplugged from the matrix. That's okay. If you go through the tunnel, there will be others like me on the other side. We're waiting for you.


I'm Chubbicorn80, and I Love You. I'm here for you, and I'm waiting for you. You are enough. I'm proud of you. I'm here on this side with you, and I'll be waiting for you on the other side.


*This article was adapted from a Twitter thread by Chubbicorn80*

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